Tuesday, July 15, 2014

"The Knock"

The sky outside is the black of deep night, mottled with stars as only a country sky can be.  A single cone of moonlight falls across the living room floor.

The house is quiet. 

It’s my parent’s house; my childhood home.  I move down the hallway from the living room and into the bedroom I had as a child.  I pick up a box of old clothes and belongings that my mother has saved for me and begin to sort through them in the dark.  We are having a yard sale the next day, and I promised I would help prepare.  Down the hallway, I know my mother is awake and going through her closet as well.  We are the only two at home.

Knock, knock, knock.  I pause from my work and look up.  Suddenly the peacefulness of the still country evening is broken.  I am scared.  I peek out of the bedroom door and down the hallway at the clock.  It’s 10:30 at night.  Who could be knocking on the front door at this hour?

I whisper quietly to my mother.  “Who is that?”

I don’t hear anything immediately. I wait.  “Just ignore it,” she answers after a long pause.  Her voice drifts down the hallway from her own dark room, and in those three words I can hear all of the tension and the fear that she is trying to keep from me.

I turn to go back to my work of sorting by moonlight when I hear it again, softer this time.  Knock, knock.

I am not sure how much time passes at this point.  I hear the knocking start up again and I cannot ignore it any longer. 

Knock, knock, knock, knock.  The knocking is curt, but insistent.  My curiosity gets the better of me and I begin to walk slowly down the hall, back toward the living room and the entryway.  Maybe it is one of the neighbors, maybe it’s an emergency…I try to rationalize.  My limbs are stiff with fear, and I walk mechanically, closer to the door with each agonizingly slow step.

Knock. Step.  Knock.  Step.

The grey-blue tile of the entryway is flooded by the motion light on the front porch; the light is more yellow and harsh than the graceful moonlight that preceded it.  There is a decorative window to the right of the door, and I can make out a small, dark figure through the mosaic glass as I draw closer.  The pattern in the glass obscures the figure behind it, and I cannot tell who it is.

I move slowly around the corner of the entryway into the dining area, where another window facing the porch gives me a clearer view.   A small child, a boy, is standing in front of the door.  He is wearing a blue polo shirt and tan cargo pants, and he could not be more than six years old.  His mousy brown hair is tousled and his face is smudged with dirt.

He sees me at the same time that I see him.  And he is angry.

His brows furrow, acquiring the look of a child about to have a tantrum.  He points back to the door expectantly, waiting for me to open it. 

And I do.  I open the door slowly, just a crack, propping it open with my foot.  “Are you OK, little boy?  What are you doing here by yourself?”

His manner changes immediately.  He is still angry, but his voice takes on a defensive tone as well.  “Why are you talking to me? “  He takes a step back, cringing visibly. 

“Stay away from me!” He yells, tears starting in his eyes.

I open the door wider, thoroughly confused.  Now I am getting upset.  “What?  You knocked on MY door! …What do you want?” I ask, trying to remember that I am talking to a child.  But I cannot keep the frustration from my voice.

The boy’s demeanor changes again as soon as he hears my frustration.  He steps closer to the door again, and his face splits in a wicked, gleeful grin as he looks down at his shoes like a child who is caught doing mischief.

Suddenly, I know who he is.  WHAT he is.  I remember the stories I have heard of black-eyed children—of sinister beings posing as children, who steal the souls of anyone who would let them inside.  I begin to panic as hot fear spreads inside my abdomen.  He can’t come in unless I invite him.  Just close the door! I tell myself.

As if in answer to my thoughts, the boy looks up from the ground, still grinning.  His eyes are black as pitch, gleaming like marbles.  There is no white, no colored iris.  Only hopeless, fathomless black.

I try to scream, try to close the door.  But he rushes forward at the same moment, and I begin to fall backward into the house as he—it—collides with me.


End.

Blog Reboot!

I've decided to revisit blogging! At the advice of a couple of you (let's be honest, the only ones who read this anyway!) I've decided to give the ol' blog a reboot. :}

So for the time being, I am dedicating this blog to writing about my dreams.  Nightmares, mostly.  I am a total chicken but for some reason no matter how much I try to avoid the creepy and the disturbing, it still seeks me out in my dreams.  I've always had a rampant imagination and I used to try to avoid scary movies for this very reason.  But as the nightmares seem to come anyway, I've given in to my love of the paranormal, and the creepy, and the strange.

I'm still scared to watch horror movies, and I might occasionally sleep with the light on.  But I'm working on it, okay?  And I think this might be therapeutic just as much as it is beneficial to add to my writing portfolio.

So without further adieu...I hope you enjoy! Analyze even, if you want to.  Just don't be too harsh on me--they're only dreams after all!

Thursday, July 14, 2011

Post Potter Phobia

Hello, world. I am both sad and excited--and nerdy and proud!--as I write this.  Because I am getting ready to go see the midnight showing of the final  Harry Potter movie.  This is something all we Potter fans have been anticipating and dreading with equal fervor, because it is so much more than a movie or a book franchise.  To those who have followed Harry's journey from the beginning, it is the end of an era.

I realized, as I thought about how old I was when I first heard of Harry Potter, that the wizarding world of Hogwarts has been a part of my life for just around half of my life.  Which is crazy.  Something that captivated me (and so many others) at the age of 11, is still something that I appreciate today.  I remember my teacher reading the first book out loud to our 6th grade class--the only time that all 30-odd students sat silent, completely absorbed in (shudder at the thought) literature.  I remember buying the first book on cassette tape for my mother to listen to, because she didn't understand what all the hype was about; my parents have been avid Potter fans since.  And I remember the first midnight showing of Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone: sitting in a long line outside the movie theater with my friends (now in high school), the anticipation almost tangible.

Say what you will about the books and the movies, but the ability of J.K. Rowling to not only create a story--but a CULTURE-- is an incredible achievement in its own right.

Anyway, I am really letting my inner nerd out here, I know.  But even though this is the end of the Harry Potter series (precluding any eventual movie remakes, as I am sure will eventually occur), the world of Harry Potter is one that I will continue to revisit.  And it's something I plan to share with my children, if I ever have any.

Well, I guess that's enough spewing for today! I will follow up with a movie review soon, of course.

<3 SVL

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Splotchy Tomatoes and Miniature Fireworks

Yes, that's right. I look like a splotchy tomato.  Leave it to me to somehow be only half-committed to saving my skin with sunscreen--thus producing large red splotches in random places that even normal work clothes don't entirely conceal.  Without divulging too much information, it's also been a very painful experience for me to sit down.

I'm blaming the spray-on sunscreen!  These marketers nowadays are getting too smart for their own damn good (or maybe just too smart for me?  Depressing thought.)  I mean, if you can't see where you put the sunscreen on because all it consists of is a vague mist that quickly evaporates on your skin, leaving only a faint stickiness as the only evidence it was ever there, how are you supposed to know you're covered?  Ha!  You don't!  And thus...splotchy tomato.

On a more positive note in relation to the 4th of July festivities, I had a very enjoyable Firework Viewing Experience.  We decided to climb up to a walking/biking trail overlooking the park in my boyfriend's neighborhood, and at any given point we were able to see between 3 and 6 different fireworks shows going on at once.  It was breathtaking.  The only unfortunate factor was the distance, which caused some obscurity due to mountains and cloud cover.  But for the most part it was definitely worth it, if for no other reason than avoiding the throngs of people that were doubtless present at the actual events.

My favorite show was actually the one furthest away from us on the coast, because the visibility was amazing.  Each firework looked so small and perfect, it was like I was watching a miniature replica of what fireworks are supposed to look like;  almost like a tiny drop of vibrant ink, that would suddenly explode and begin to bleed tiny beads of color against the blackness.

Farewell until next time, world...this chair is getting a bit too uncomfortable already.

<3 SVL

Monday, July 4, 2011

Happy 4th of July!

Getting ready to hopefully go scope out a good firework-viewing spot! There are a few spots in the county where you can watch 3 or 4 different fireworks shows happening at once! There's something about fireworks that I have always loved...I know a lot of people find them cliche. And to you I say, don't be such a Grinch! Ok, maybe the wrong holiday. But I love the innocence and the excitement of it. It takes me back to so many summers and memories ago, just like the smell of hot dogs grilling and the sun setting over the valley. So here's to you, America. And to the brave men and women who have given and continue to give so much every day so that we can celebrate another year of freedom. May you and your loved ones be safe and happy today.

Happy Birthday USA!

<3 SVL

Sunday, June 26, 2011

Disasters and Disneyland

Hello again, world!  I don't know what has happened with time lately, it's like I blinked and two weeks just flew by!

This weekend was one that started off terrible.  Friday was one of those days that whatever could go wrong, did. If the car we were driving in suddenly caught fire of its own accord I would not have been surprised at all.  In fact, I was almost expecting it by the end of the night.  Some useful lessons I gathered from the experience, that I will now pass on to you:

1.) Don't ever leave for Los Angeles from San Diego at 4pm on a Friday afternoon and expect to be there before 8:30.
2.) Hollywood is disgusting, dirty, vile, ugly, unkempt, expensive, and overcrowded.  If a city is able to be described by sentient attributes, then I would say it is unfeeling, rude, and two-faced.  I have no idea why people move there to try to "make it big."  At the risk of sounding like a giant, sheltered snob (which I guess I am, in some respects), I kissed the ground in San Diego the second we got back.
3.) Don't ever go anywhere without cash.  Apparently, in this world where we can now push a button on our smart phones and pay for our Starbucks, we still need to pay CASH ONLY for show tickets and parking lots.  What good is technology if it fails you when you need it most?
4.) If a show opens up with a loudmouthed woman scaring half of the audience away with her ill-timed and ill-delivered fat, ugly, lesbian, and gay jokes, then you know the show is off to a bad start.  It's off to an even worse start when you realize it is "her" show, and she will be coming onstage between each act to deliver more low-brow insults that were supposed to pass for jokes.  It is around this time when you have sat through two hours of mostly not-at-all funny comedians, that your friend is up next onstage (who you know to be funny, or you wouldn't have driven all the way to LA to see him!) and gets cut off 4 minutes into his act.
5.) If you decide to drive through Beverly Hills on your way back to normal civilization, and you see a sign for road construction blocking the southbound freeway entrance up ahead, TURN AROUND.  It isn't worth it.  "Well can't I just get on the northbound freeway, and take the next exit that has an entrance to the southbound?"  You think to yourself.  Oh ho ho noooo!  They have effectively blocked off the next ten miles of exits and onramps, and you will begin to smell a conspiracy!  At least, I did by the time we had driven another 15 miles north without finding somewhere to turn around.
6.) Even though by this point in time you have effectively wasted about $140 on gas, parking, overpriced drinks and tickets, it is a good idea to do whatever possible to make the rest of the weekend better.  Solution?  Disneyland!

I love spontaneous trips, especially to the happiest place on earth!  So that's what we decided to do with our Saturday.  Even though I had some misgivings about how crowded it was likely to be, my boyfriend became the master of FastPass Planning, and we were able to go on almost every ride we wanted to, several more than once.  Splash Mountain was the exception to this because the wait times are always outrageous when its 80 degrees outside.  We ended up buying season passes, so I am excited to go back again soon (excluding weekends and holidays, because I am too cheap to pay a thousand dollars just so I can go on those days.)

So to sum it up, what started out as the worst weekend ever, actually turned itself around.  Sometimes it pays to just say "screw it," cancel plans and spend some extra cash, and just enjoy yourself.

Until next time!

<3 SVL

Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Of the Matrix and an Ol' Dirty Bastard

Hello World,


You ever have one of those days, weeks, (or like me, months) where everything seems to have changed, and you're not quite sure where it began?  It's like you woke up in the Matrix, only you don't remember swallowing that little blue pill.  Or was it red? 


Anyway, it just seems like one of those times for me.  I realize I am talking in vague generalizations, and I wish I could be more specific, but that's the best I can do for now.  In the meantime, you are the poor, unsuspecting audience hearing my rants, however sporadic they might come.


On a slightly more specific note (you're welcome), I've had "Ghetto Supastar" stuck in my head for the past two days straight. Hopefully if you are between the ages of 20 and 40, you can appreciate what I'm talking about. That song holds a lot of nostalgia for me, because it reminds me of summertime and dance parties with my cousins. But the fact that it will not, for any length of time, leave my brain, makes me start to resent it! Why oh WHY do our brains insist on latching onto music and placing a single song, or chorus, or heaven forbid vague-tune-to-hum-because-you-don't-know-any-of-the-lyrics on "repeat" for an indefinite amount of time?


What's the longest amount of time you've had a song stuck in your head? What's the most annoying song you've ever had stuck in your head? Did I just get a song stuck in your head? *evil laugh*

<3 SVL